Lead Me

Hello there, blog world. I know I have neglected my blog lately and honestly it's simply because my life has not been worth sharing to the world (ha, as if anyone really reads) but I felt like I really needed to share something with whoever is out there reading this. The title of my blog today is "Lead Me" and it is from a song that I have alwasy loved by a great Christian band called Sanctus Real. I have heard this song a million times, but it was not until today that I really heard it for what it was saying.
As I was sitting in church today, this was the last song they played and as I was reading the lyrics and singing along in my head with the band, tears started streaming down my face. The lyrics just hit me so hard, especially where I am in my life right now.

"Lead Me" Sanctus Real
I look around and see my wonderful life
Almost perfect from the outside
In picture frames, I see my beautiful wife
Always smiling, but on the inside

Oh, I can hear her saying

Lead me with strong hands
Stand up when I can't
Don't leave me hungry for love
Chasing dreams, but what about us?

Show me you're willing to fight
That I'm still the love of your life
I know we call this our home
But I still feel alone

I see their faces, look in their innocent eyes
They're just children from the outside
I'm working hard, I tell myself they'll be fine
They're independent, but on the inside

Oh, I can hear them saying

Lead me with strong hands
Stand up when I can't
Don't leave me hungry for love
Chasing dreams, what about us?

Show me you're willing to fight
That I'm still the love of your life
I know we call this our home
But I still feel alone

So Father, give me the strength
To be everything I'm called to be
Oh Father, show me the way
To lead them

Won't You lead me?

To lead them with strong hands
To stand up when they can't
Don't want to leave them hungry for love
Chasing things that I could give up

I'll show them I'm willing to fight
And give them the best of my life
So we can call this our home
Lead me 'cause I can't do this alone

Father, lead me 'cause I can't do this alone
http://youtu.be/OAKBXBXz1fo

Talk about powerfull. I'm not going to get real personal here and really go into why this song has so much meaning to me now, but it's changed me. It's funny how something that seems so simple, like a song, can do that. Things have been rough for me lately, but I have full faith in God that if I just come to Him, he will guide me and help me through this.
Sorry for a kind of sad post, I just had to share this with whoever is reading. I promise there will be more exciting posts in the future and it will be more about the wedding because I have actually been making a little progress on things! yay! But for now, remember that even when thigns get hard and you don't think you can keep going, God is there to help you and hold your hand through it all.

xoxo,
Coco